the situation has gone from bad to worse.
but in the eye of the storm i am calm.
everyone around me crumbles.
i am a rock.
the ex is acting out whorishly.
the brother is helping not helping.
screaming, in fact. what the hell?
the friends help and don't help.
the forgetting sarah marshall movie rivals my exact sentiments right now and uplifted my spirits and made me think sad thoughts.
i get no respect.
i am intimidating.
i am intimidated.
the girl i asked out has a boyfriend (don't care)
it's good for me to hear no.
it's good for me to hear yes, as well.
that's why i move on.
talking to different people.
i am better for this.
i am better than anyone i know right now.
i have more shit going on in my life right now than anyone i know and i should be the most hurt yet i am fine.
how the fuck does that work?
because i have something that no one around me has.
i have clarity.
i have the ability to look above and beyond the bullshit and see clearly.
i know what's ahead and i'm going to get there and no one's going to stop me.
that's why people try to bring me down, like hands reaching from hell.
drugs, booze, slutty women.
get the fuck off me.
let me be.
let me be me.
i have surpassed your expectations and been what none of you could.
i am real.
and my heart is enormous.
fuck you all.
life is good.