my brother and his girlfriend were almost murdered last night.
we need to make the house presentable
so as to leave the house quickly.
we pulled weeds and thorn bushes all day.
i have gashes in my legs and arms.
pulling thorns from my skin.
worked hard all day.
was going to play hard tonight, but.
my ex (3 ex's ago) is in town.
my first big relationship.
she was a tease,
cheated on me.
is on again off again with the guy
she cheated on me with.
she came over.
we didn't go out.
she was late and had eaten.
i hadn't.
earlier, i had run to the store to get (...)
just incase.
9pm
beautiful as ever.
breeze on in to my room.
talked
picked out a movie
half hour in
i got closer
until.
arms around waist.
"are you getting fresh?"
of course i am baby, that's why you came here.
kisses on the neck. and ears. and . she smelled.
so
good.
to me.
and she felt amazing, soft.
she taught me how to kiss.
and i knew exactly what to do to her.
she wanted me.
bad.
i could see it in her eyes. and she even told me so.
and here comes the "but"
but, she thought it was a bad idea .. and it was too soon (she knew my most recent ex, kind of friend-emies).. blah blah blah blah blah...
"it's hard to say no to you"
and she said her off-again boyfriend was coming back into town and she had hopes of getting back together with him.
i hadn't the strength in me to let her know all the horrible things she did to me.
and how it scarred me.
and so she left.
"call you tomorrow..?"
"we'll see..." i said.
i am played for a fool,
yet again.
just yesterday, before the chaos.
i was denied by another girl. 23. beautiful. funny. cute smile.
.. getting engaged
i swear to god.
my day better come soon.
oh. and.
i recorded this.
grab it while you can.