i am uneasy.
i am up and down.
fluttering heart.
since i was born,
i've had an irregular heartbeat.
(born with chestplates overlapping)
breathing is difficult.
get lightheaded, too, sometimes,
and pass out.
so, i've made this mix.
for you,
for me.
take it, love it, subtract some songs, add some songs + - whatever
burn it. pass it on.
but most of all, listen and enjoy.
breakdown:
1. horse and i . 'head soaked in river water'
2. how soon is now? - my obsession as of late. "theres a club if you'd like to go you could meet somebody who really loves you so you go and you stand on your own and you leave on your own and you go home and you cry and you want to die. i am human and i want to be loved just like everybody else does."
3. black dress - makes me miss her, even though she hated this song. maybe she didn't understand it, but i do.
4. nothing gives me pleasure - the lyrics are advice, the music is up my alley
5. the man who told everything - doves doves doves, guitar influence for me
6. why does my heart feel so bad? - moby always gets it right
7. ive been thinking (feat. cat power) - swap pronouns to suit your sexual needs.
8. lullaby - tangled in your spiderweb
9. all i need - i think its my new favorite in rainbows song, the last minute is epic.
10. shining road -
11. rio grande - falling down. like in a hurricane whirlpool underwater tumbling towards the bottom of the sea and accepting it. burying your head in the sediment. the instrumentation. in my head. all the time. all the time. all the time. means the world to me.
12. hey - the pixies. the sexiest song ever written. ever. "if you go i will surely die"
13. we need help - puts me at peace
14. for the wars - clinique
15. parachutes - 46 second love replay over and over and over
16. EZ - thank you pete
17. fade into you - the definition of beautiful
18. true love ways - this song, this individual recording of this song, is the key, the skeleton key to my heart.
19. sleep walking - santo and johnny. 1950's. 1950's cars. malt shops. vinyl. poodle skirts. graveyards. fog. remembering.
20. don't make no roads - make an educated guess.