she walked right by me in a dream and had nothing to say.
but i guess that's not only a dream.
it's going to be reality this saturday when i have to see her.
what a strange dream, besides the fact.
there were different dreams in this one dream.
something about planes and cars. traveling through towns that turn into towns overrun by monsters at night and trying to outrun them to get to the next town for some reason.
then there was riding a bike all around the city.
trying to get to certain places.
making plans.
working in a hospital.
riding a bike through the hospital.
a hot nurse named "pig"
big red letters back of uniform
i almost ran her over on my bike
and i said, "watch out pig!"
and she gave me a nasty look
"why'd you say that?"
"i didn't want to run you over"
didnt have time to explain
then i got outside
was talking with my dad who had just pulled up for some different reason
and that's when she walked by
like she was on one of her jobs.
right in front of me, saying some smart ass remark along the lines of "this job sucks! i'm gonna be late, haha!" which is usual retort she'd tell me. which is bull because we got her the fucking job, which she still works at with my brother. without my family she'd have no job at all!! ever! (long story, but 'tis true)
and someone said she was dating a
car salesman
and all i could think was
"bitch. whore. bitch. whore."
and i woke up.
and now i have to go pick up my dry cleaning / tailoring and go to work.
and think about what the fuck this is all supposed to mean all day.
while listening to the only thing they play at work alllll day long.
50's music.
which i like, but have you ever listened to 50's music everyday of your life for a year+ ?
it's all love songs. guys sing about missing girls. girls sing about missing guys. "don't break up with me johnny!" "sue don't break up with me!"
jesus christ man! and the guys sound like girls. girls sound like guys. it's terrible. all these fucking love songs, and i can't get a break. just can't get one goddamn break.
oh well, "better times ahead" right?