from this moment onward
nothing in my path shall be overlooked
every moment i breathe will be a moment in celebration
each and every thought i have will be motivating and strong
because i am strong
and every day i will grow as a person
and as a human being
i will become the person i want to be
nothing will stop me
no haze or shortcomings will fail me
every breath is precious now
i'm not going out like this
i'm tired of people forgetting me
i'm tired of people using me
i'm tired of people abusing me
all of this will be gone.
no more.
it's not that i can't take it,
because if you're only now catching up
i have
i very much so have taken every bit of pain and abuse and hurt and put it into a place that is the black of my soul
i WON'T take it
i will NOT stand for this anymore
i am making a major fucking u-turn in my life
i'm hitting the gym harder faster more often
i'm eating healthy
i'm taking who i was and adding more
i'm taking all the bad memories and dealing with them
and most of all
i will not fail myself
i won't.
i will not let myself down.
i matter more than the pain of the past.
i matter now.
and nothing will stop me from achieving success and happiness.
i deserve it.
get ready for a new erases.
the show is about to begin.